Happy New Year!!!
i think i changed my mind.
I had immense amount of emotions bottled up in me for this past month. I tried, I really tried to restrain myself from going crazy. All the pull back are so tiring.
we should be on a new page today.
A brand new beginning. THe closing to my craziness that lasted for the past 3 years. odd things had happen before on new years eve. yet i can't recall what i did last year. last year christmas holiday was a blur. all i can remember were snow storms, parents-free house, and a bf.
one word to describe last year: DRAMATIC.
from an over passionate relationship to one too important then to one too vague. there were just too many heartaches. by the end of the year, I had to heal myself from THREE traumatic absents. I was devastated. not that i went through a lot, but they were all dramatic.
Yet I learned much from all this 'fun'. I am certain 2006 would get even more intense. I miss having that special person in life to walk with. I feel weak by myself. Though, I need to be on my own to search for MYpath. I am very glad to not have much factors to consider except just ME. My parents told me not to worry for them, I can do whatever show up in my way. No special person to consider, and no particular connection here. I am very glad. all this make my decision to just plainly be based on my own needs. the more i think, the more i feel ÉN³¥È±o§Ú¯dÅÊ HAHAHHhahah if u know me, u probably would know what this is leading me to.
I feel the need to strip myself away from my forever gone first love. I need to restore energy into my life. I need new skin on me. I need to remove my emotional burden. There are so many things waiting for me to do.
so here is to fulfill my need to find closure. To close up this chapter of my life. I know this past 3 years of my life would forever be in my heart. yet it is time to close them up. bye kayano!
and welcome to the new chapter ~~ my new xanga
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